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got through the first week which in my opinion is the hardest and I lost 4 lbs!! Goal for next week is to exercise more.
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So I went to bally's today for my 8 weeks free pass and it is real of course they do offer you a huge deal which I am considering bc the monthly payments are cheap, you get a whole year free and a llifetime locked in rate of $19 a month. But if you don't want to sign up you just get the 8 weeks free which is prett cool. Here is to be skinning and healthy in 2008.
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I lost a lil bit of wait before the holidays but I gained it all back and maybe a few more over the course of the last 2 weeks but there is no point in starting a diet until after the New Year I am still exercising and eating decent but I am not being strict on myself until after the new year. For the 1st 2 weeks I will do the South beach diet to detox my body and then go back to weight watchers.

January 2nd- Turbo Jam Cardio(40 Min) pilates (30 Min)
January 3rd- turbo Jam Cardio (40min)
January 4th- turbo Sculpt (40 min)
January 5th- Jazzercise (90 min)
January 6th- Pilates (30 min)
January 7th- Jazzercise (60)
january 8th- Turbo Jam (40 min)

Current Mood:
energetic energetic
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I know it had been a while for me on here but I really need to vent and myspace has way too many people looking to write anything personal so here it goes. All and all life has been great school is good, my relationship is better then ever, I have the best support system in everything I do, so why is my depression coming back. At the beginning of 2006 I was able to beat the illness and lose almost 40lbs that I had put on due to it and now I have gained 15 of it back and feel like I am back in the whole again. Life has been looking up, the road ahead of me is brighter, a house and a great future so why now?? Mabye it is just overwhelming, who knows. I just know I got to pull myself out of it I can not let myself get as bad as I was over a yr ago. I have to pull my tapes from the midwest center out and do the program again..
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I am having a bad day!!! I just found out that my son's daycare program runs out at the end of the month and I honestly dont know how Chris and I are going to afford it. I wont switch his daycare for a cheaper 1, I know all of his teachers and love them and also he loves going there with his cousin. I dont know what to do I am going to have to see if he can go part time 2-3 days a week bc a full week would make it not worth workng on my part bc I dont make a lot of money. I dont know if I could not work. I dont know how people do that I had off from work today to go to the daycare program and it only took up an hour of my morning and the rest of the day I felt like I was going to go nuts. How many errands can you really run everyday??? I just could never not work it would drive me nuts.. I know Chris and myself will work things out just stressful figuring out what!! Rambling sorry just got a lot on my mind.
Current Mood:
stressed stressed
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I cant believe how hard I am falling for this guy. I am trying to control my feelings and just make this a casual relationship but after he expressed his feeling for me it was like the bridge I was building collapsed. It was 1 of the greatest nights I ave had in a long time. He held me in the pool and whispered in my ear I am falling for you. I didnt know what to say but inside I felt the same way. we just drifted along in the pool telling each other our thoughts and feeling. the only thing that I didnt know what to say was how he wanted to know scott. I promised chris I wouldnt do that and I also dont want to do that unless I think it is something serious and I am not ready for anything serious am I??
Current Mood:
drunk drunk
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WOW I am really falling hard for Geoff. I dont know what it is about him but just being around him makes me get those little butterflys i my tummy. I am pretty much spending the whole weekend at his place this weekend I have to come home saturday morning but saturday night I will go back down to his house. I could spend the whole day in his arms, well I did last weekend. I woke up this morning to an IM from him that sais "Lauren I hope you have a good day, I just wanted to let you know how I feel about you is very intense especially since we have only ben talking for a couple of weeks, I have never felt so comfortable with someone and yearned to be witht hem the way I do with you. Hopefully you can come to my pool match tonight if not I hope I can stop by and see you before I go talk to you later Sweetie Geoff" Awww made my day!!!I couldnt go bc I had scottie but he did come here 1st and it was only an hour but it made my day:) I feel like a giddy teenager lol.
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happy happy
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I ran into a kid I went to HS with on myspace and we hung out last night and he is awesome. I had a couple dates with this 1 guy but there was just nothing there for me but with Geoff I get that stupid giddy feeling when he calls I am far from beinf ready for anything serious but he is def a great guy to just chill with.
Current Mood:
devious devious
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For the 1st time since me and chris 1st got together I sat up on the phone til the sun !! We talk for 7 hrs and it was really nice. I ran into someone I used to go to school with but didnt really talk to bc he was a yr younger but I am liking talking to him now he is really sweet and cute ..
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So I have never really "dated" before Sine I was 14 I was usually in long term relatioships where within a week we were exclusive so going on dates and all that sort of stuff I have never done before. Well I am 24 and I went on my 1st real date last friday night. The guy (Jason) was so sweet. When he pulled up to my house he got out of the car shock my dads hand and talked to my parents for a little bit, gave me a box of godiva chocolates and he opened doors for me all night just an all together sweet guy.. I really like him but I am not sure we are each others type but it is fun talking to him an since i am far from wantig to be in a relationship I am just enjoying getting to know different people. I feel bad bc Chris cried (he never cries at least not in front of people0 when he found out I know I shouldnt care bc he made me cry 8594859849 x's and still doesnt admit to dating that girl behind my back even thought I had 3 people including her tell me they were but I have a heart and hate to see people hurt ubt I told him he had his c hance with me and he blew it. Any advice for a single women dating now a days I hav e never done it so are there any rules lol?
Current Mood:
content content
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So sonny and vinnie are doing great!! vinnie is 5 lb 7 ounces and sonny is 6 lbs 7 ounces!! They both got there casts on their legs for their club feet so they should be off in a few months to a yr!! They should be coming home in a couple weeks bless my sister in law's heart lol! Life here has been good me and shannon are saving for our company which should be up and running in sept!! I cant believe I am going to actually own my own company, not a couple houses and all it a business actually legal, bonded and insured!!! I have almost reached my weight goal and even if I dont I am 100% happy with my weight now which I havent been since about 6 months after scott was born so it feels good. I know I suck as a friend lately but life has been crazy here. Since my sister in law had so many problems nick is here everyday and boy does that lil 1 keep you on your toys. I hope everyone is good and please dont be mad that I suck right now I love you gys!! Thanks for all your prays for the lil guys!
Current Mood:
Happier then ever Happier then ever
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My sister in law had a heart attack today. I am frecking out but everyone is telling she is fine.. I cant even see her and that is driving me nuts.. I went to exercise tonight to try and relax and for that hour it did but as sooon as I got in my car I started to cry.. Renee is my sister the 1 I never had and always wanted. When I was young (about 9 or so) she used to take me out shopping all the time and when I was in HS she would smoke pot with me we were pregnant together our son's are 2 months apart. I can talk to her about things that I dont with others I feel so helpless!!
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Join the resistance!!!! I hear we are going to hit
close to $ 4.00 a gallon by next summer and it might
go higher!! Want gasoline prices to come down? We
need to take some intelligent, united action.

Phillip Hollsworth offered this good idea. This makes
MUCH MORE SENSE than the "don't buy gas on a certain
day" campaign that was going around last April or May!
The oil companies just laughed at that because they
knew we wouldn't continue to "hurt" ourselves by
refusing to buy gas. It was more of an inconvenience
to us than it was a problem for them. BUT, whoever
thought of this idea, has come up with a plan that can
really work. Please read on and join with us!

By now you're probably thinking gasoline priced at
about $1.50 is super cheap. Me too! It is currently
$2.79 for regular unleaded in my town. Now that the
oil companies and the OPEC nations have conditioned us
to think that the cost of a gallon of gas is CHEAP at
$1.50 - $1.75, we need to take aggressive action to
teach them that BUYERS control the marketplace..not
sellers. With the price of gasoline going up more each
day, we consumers need to take action. The only way we
are going to see the price of gas come down is if we
hit someone in the pocketbook by not purchasing their
gas! And, we can do that WITHOUT hurting ourselves.
How?

Since we all rely on our cars, we can't just stop
buying gas. But we CAN have an impact on gas prices if
we all act together to force a price war.

Here's the idea: For the rest of this year, DON'T
purchase ANY gasoline from the two biggest companies
(which now are one), EXXON and MOBIL. If they are not
selling any gas, they will be inclined to reduce their
prices. If they reduce their prices, the other
companies will have to follow suit. But to have an
impact, we need to reach literally millions of Exxon
and Mobil gas buyers. It's really simple to do! Now,
don't wimp out on me at this point...keep reading and
I'll explain how simple it is to reach millions of
people!!

I am sending this note to 30 people. If each of us
send it to at least ten more (30 x 10 = 300) ... and
those 300 send it to at least ten more (300 x 10 =
3,000)...and so on, by the time the message reaches
the sixth group of people, we will have reached over
THREE MILLION consumers.

If those three million get excited and pass this on to
ten friends each, then 30 million people will have
been contacted! If it goes one level further, you
guessed it..... THREE HUNDRED MILLION PEOPLE!!!

Again, all you have to do is send this to 10 people.
That's all!
(If you don't understand how we can reach 300 million
and all you have to do is send this to 10 people....
Well, let's face it, you just aren't a mathematician.
But I am . so trust me on this one.)
How long would all that take? If each of us sends
this e-mail out to ten more people within one day of
receipt, all 300 MILLION people could conceivably be
contacted within the next 8 days!!! I'll bet you
didn't think you and I had that much potential, did
you! Acting together we can make a difference.

If this makes sense to you, please pass this message
on. I suggest that we not buy from EXXON/MOBIL UNTIL
THEY LOWER THEIR PRICES TO THE $1.30 RANGE AND KEEP
THEM DOWN. THIS CAN REALLY WORK.

Kerry Lyle, Director, Research Coordinator

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A lil update my sister in law had her babies very early but they are and she is very healthy!! Sonny is 3 lbs 14 ounces and 17 inches Vinnie is 3 lbs 2 ounces 16 in (very long for 31 weeks) they are pretty much breathing on there own and my sister in law is recovering very well her kidneys had no damage from the protein thank goodness!! On other news I lost another 4 lbs and have been doing 500 crunches a day so I am forming my six pack again ya me!! OH and Scottie's grandpaternts are coming to jersey to see there lil man for a few days cant wait to see them I miss them!! Hope all is well I should have some time tonight to catch up on your journals sorry I have been a bad LJ friend life has been hectic!!
Current Mood:
bouncy bouncy
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Worried
My brother just called from the hospital (she is pregnant with twins) my Sister in law is in the hospital and we still dont know exactly what is wrong. Nick is sleeping over tonight bc I know my brother is pacing the hospital walls right now. I went to jazzercise to relieve the stress of my other brother and his wife fighting and putting there 3 kids life through hell and stupid BS with Chris and now I feel like running a mile but the 2 little 1;s are not quite asleep yet. please pray for everything to be ok
Current Mood:
scared scared
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My fucking copmputer died on me so I had to go out and buy a brand new 1. I am going to catch up on all your journals
Current Mood:
happy happy
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Happy St Patty's Day EVERYONE!! Drink Beer and Be Merry!!
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I fucking dropped child supoort of Chris bc he is a great father and I know whatever I ne3ed for Scott I can get. Well since he started his new job the checks were like 3-4 checks behind that is $180 a check mind you.. Well I thought after I dropped it I would receive those checks NOPE!! The lady told me I had to drop rears which I thought meant any money he owed to me Welll it also means dropping anything that is supposed to come to me. I fucking flipped on the lady and she said well you didnt have to put and arears in the notorized letter. I WAS FUCKING TOLD I HAD TO. SO my fucking case worker screwed me. She could of at least told me if I right and aears I wouldnt see any money but no. Now where does this fucking money go?? To support the lazy fucks that collect welfare and dont even fucking work .
Current Mood:
fucking mad fucking mad
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I cant believe I go that big, depression really packed on the lbs so I have 2 things to be proud of I dug myself at of self destruction mood and worked my lil butt of to lose 22 lbs YEAh. Oh yeah and kicking the Asshole out of my life. here I am now

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I still have 18 to go but I am well on my way and I am so happy. And no me and Chris are NOT together we just took our son to sesame street live it was a lot of fun
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